Little
that I knew, the year had so much for me. Soon after
downgrading myself from bachelor, unintentionally I raised my
responsibility as family man. To put it in plain text I thought
getting married was not a big deal, since we have decided to continue
living the same way with a small change that we are gonna share same
room. How wrong was I? Very wrong, as a pointer my wife delivered a boy baby last month.
I believe I picked a wrong tone to announce that. I'm a
Dad now!!! ...and that I'm a responsible family man I started to
plan future for my son, Sarveshwaran. Of course I don't want to be the stereotyped
Indian parent pushing their child to choose a career of their liking
instead of their offspring's. The best example to explain the worst
effect of such attitude is Rahul Gandhi, forced into politics (if
rumors are rit) brings down the legacy of party with single
'empowering' interview, I don't want that to happen to my child. The world has become materialistic curse it,
but you have to face it; my earning was good enough to take care of my 'right now' expenses' but I was too afraid that I'd be whole up
there if I continue to work the way I was working.
Working
in an MNC which has hired the right kind of image branding consultant
will give you an excellent introduction line, like “Hi I'm Shiva, I
work in XYZ as Software developer for ABC dominating <random>
domain in NA.” don't worry if you don't get it, its sort of IT services
stuff. But what it can do to your career? That character I appended
to career '?' no one can guarantee a career, in IT service workplace
you can't guarantee anything from coffee vending machine to job safety or satisfaction. But
it gives you a lottery to get to NA, to be particular US
visa, and I don't approve the idea of leaving career to lottery.
That's
when I made a decision that would become the second biggest change in
the year 2014. To build my career I decided to quit my first job, for
many the decision was not something unexpected. They knew I
was not happy with my work, I complained a lot, they knew I love open
source, they knew I love to express, they knew I had the potential to
prove again starting from zero. And now I
work in organization which has 100 times less employee than my
previous employer, but now I work in a way I want, in a conductive
environment, in technologies that I didn't knew, this is geek
awesome. And man I get loads of gifts and people here are more friendly, not just virtually.
I was
confused, still I'm. I was doubtful about future, still I'm. I felt
burdened that I became a husband, and now I'm responsibly for one
more soul. I was not ready, I'm not ready, I can't be ready, but I
should and I will face yet another year that will bring me more
challenges and celebrations. Shaking hands with 2014 for the last
time as a happy dad, proud developer, and a humbled being.
Wishing
you all a happy new year.
--
Shiva
hari kumar Balasubramanian
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