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Hey there 2014

Little that I knew, the year had so much for me. Soon after downgrading myself from bachelor, unintentionally I raised my responsibility as family man. To put it in plain text I thought getting married was not a big deal, since we have decided to continue living the same way with a small change that we are gonna share same room. How wrong was I? Very wrong, as a pointer my wife delivered a boy baby last month. 

I believe I picked a wrong tone to announce that. I'm a Dad now!!! ...and that I'm a responsible family man I started to plan future for my son, Sarveshwaran. Of course I don't want to be the stereotyped Indian parent pushing their child to choose a career of their liking instead of their offspring's. The best example to explain the worst effect of such attitude is Rahul Gandhi, forced into politics (if rumors are rit) brings down the legacy of party with single 'empowering' interview, I don't want that to happen to my child. The world has become materialistic curse it, but you have to face it; my earning was good enough to take care of my 'right now' expenses' but I was too afraid that I'd be whole up there if I continue to work the way I was working.

Working in an MNC which has hired the right kind of image branding consultant will give you an excellent introduction line, like “Hi I'm Shiva, I work in XYZ as Software developer for ABC dominating <random> domain in NA.” don't worry if you don't get it, its sort of IT services stuff. But what it can do to your career? That character I appended to career '?' no one can guarantee a career, in IT service workplace you can't guarantee anything from coffee vending machine to job safety or satisfaction. But it gives you a lottery to get to NA, to be particular US visa, and I don't approve the idea of leaving career to lottery.

That's when I made a decision that would become the second biggest change in the year 2014. To build my career I decided to quit my first job, for many the decision was not something unexpected. They knew I was not happy with my work, I complained a lot, they knew I love open source, they knew I love to express, they knew I had the potential to prove again starting from zero. And now I work in organization which has 100 times less employee than my previous employer, but now I work in a way I want, in a conductive environment, in technologies that I didn't knew, this is geek awesome. And man I get loads of gifts and people here are more friendly, not just virtually.

I was confused, still I'm. I was doubtful about future, still I'm. I felt burdened that I became a husband, and now I'm responsibly for one more soul. I was not ready, I'm not ready, I can't be ready, but I should and I will face yet another year that will bring me more challenges and celebrations. Shaking hands with 2014 for the last time as a happy dad, proud developer, and a humbled being.

Wishing you all a happy new year.

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Shiva hari kumar Balasubramanian
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